three months.

today marks the day of three months of being married (18months of being together).
it still seems kind of unreal to me sometimes, I look at my rings, I look at the pictures... and still it is a weird feeling.
we didn't plan getting married this year. but when I came here in October to visit and as we talked about being separated again for months and months, we decided to get married, to try it out to live together here in the US. and finally filed for my green card and my adjustment of status in december, before my legal time to stay was up...

we had the most fun on this day. we chose halloween. even though I still am sad, that my parents, my family and my friends couldn't be there because of money and time issues. the time of notice was just too short for reasonable plane ticket prices. haha. so, we're planning on having another ceremony when we hopefully go visit Germany on xmas, for the sake of this...

having a halloween wedding was most fun. I don't think I am the girl for a real traditional type of wedding in a white gown and all... so, this was kind of perfect for me, for us.
I love my man, I love us. And all I wish for is that I will be able to stay here, to get my green card.

just a few weeks...

I thought I would be stronger, tougher... but I am not.
I miss him terribly. I feel alone, lonely. I am wearing my mask again, I hope I can keep it on a bit longer.
My depression kicked back in last week and it doesn't want to leave again, although I tried to get back on my feet.
This whole situation is wearing me out. Being alone, hardly having friends, not really having something to do, the lack of money because I am not allowed to work and above all this constant fear because of my immigration process. We got a request for evidence, I answered last week, but did not hear anything back, also no word about my biometrics appointment. I just want this whole thing already to be over, to be sure that I can stay here or to hear that I have to leave. the latter would crush me, him, us and I don't really even want to think about it, but it keeps crawling into my mind when I don't keep my guards up.
All this waiting. I feel helpless because there is nothing I can do.
It is such a horrible feeling to totally be at the mercy of the USCIS.
I just want to be able to live with the man I love, to wake up next to him every morning, to have a life together, to be able to start planning a family...

filling in the blanks friday.

1.   My favorite place I've ever traveled to is     Cardiff (although I didn't only travel but lived there) .

2.    Australia     is somewhere I'd love to go someday.

3.  I pass the time on a plane (or bus, or car ride or train) by      reading, listening to music, watching stupid movies or trying to sleep  .

4.  My three must-haves when I travel are     my iPod    ,    thick socks   and     vegan food   .

5.  My favorite travel companion is    my husband, my friends  .

6.  The craziest thing that ever happened to me while traveling is    trying to go a festival in belgium and ending up in france  .

7.  The most exotic food I've ever tried while traveling is      .

8.  If I could live anywhere else, I'd live (in)   somewhere where the summer never ends   .

9.  I have been to    1  

 

state(s) in the U.S.  My first trip to Austin, Texas was also my very first trip to the States in general. But I will try my best to change this soon and at least see 2 other states this year.

my week 1+2.

last night out.

fav hobby: making silly faces.

having fun, playing rambo.

sad face.

7am dog walks.

freya and occupy bed.

my work schedule.

weird texas weather.

oh america...

lunch break with battle star galactica.

my best mere is back.

cuddles.

my best friend sent me this.

I need to do something with this hair.

wearing my wedding tutu.

the last few days...

lunch break.

The hubster left last thursday. Since then I am alone here. It feels weird.

I mean... we have always been in a long distance relationship until October 2011, but when we were apart, I had my old life with university, my friends and my job. 

Now,being in Austin, everything is different.. I haven't had the chance yet to make many new friends, my best friend Meredith is currently in Germany and I don't have a job... and most importantly by thursday I won't have a car which really will be the biggest pain in the ass.  

So, I am sitting at home, being a housewife and taking care of the dog. 

And waiting for the next steps to take in my AOS process. If only this would go faster... 

I am thinking about stuff to do around the house, in my area without spending money. Maybe re-doing this 30day photo project I did last year on my tumblr... hmm.

Any ideas???

12 for 2012

01. lose 50lbs and grow my hair out. 

02. move into a house by April/May.

03. save money, have a bugdet, stick to it.

04. get through AOS, get my greencard, workallowance and then a JOB.

05. learn to knit.

06. make new friends in Austin. keep the ones I have.

07. improve my spanish, learn a scandinavian language.

08. take better care of myself.

09. get a job I love.

10. six flags for my birthday.

11. go home for xmas.

12. (continue to) be an awesome wife.

a year in photos.

http://vimeo.com/34224981


by my talented husband!

my xmas miracle.

my dog is back. we returned to the spot where she ran away from our friends today... I got out in the woods, yelled her name.. and she just popped out of nowhere...
we are so happy.

my week 49.

monday - muddy.

tuesday - social psychology test.

wednesday - 7am.

thursday - the hood.

friday - getting shots.

saturday - getting blue fairy hair.

sunday - chilling.

7am.

a little video about the last months...

a few months in the life.

our puppies.

luke (we gonna keep him)

leia.

leia.

t´pol.

b´elanna. leia. t´pol.

4 weeks old now. soon it´s time to give them away, it´s gonna break my heart.

our wedding.

we decided to get married on halloween and to have a costume wedding.
me as a huge star wars fan was destined to have a star wars costume but hated all the girl character´s costumes I could find. So I built a female version of Bobba Fett.
And to my surprise my hubby stuck with me and came as Chewbacca... I told you, we are meant to be together. 

my chewi waiting for me.

MOH - bride - groom - best man.

the wedding party.